أجلس أمامك ، و أتصفح عيناك الكاذبتين بحزن و ألم

مرت أيام من عمري ، ياعمري قضيتها بحيرة و بندم

قضيت ليال طوال على ذكراك ،أعد الثواني لحين لقياك

بحثت عنك في غربتي ، في الشوارع ، في مخيلتي و لم أنساك
لن أبكي على حبنا المهدور ولن أبكي على جرحي منك

لن أرضى بهواني ولن أرضى بعدي عنك

من نسج خيالي رسمت لك حائطا صلبا وعاليا

ليحميك من عيون الناس ويريحك من شرور الدنيا

لكنك رفضت عطائي لك و أردت الهروب الى بعيد
لتبحث في الناس في الدنيا ، لتبحث وتجرب كل جديد
خلعت عني الأمل ،جردتني من كل الأحاسيس

وضعتني على رف قديم ، أخفيتني خلف الكواليس

بخطا ثقيلة وحذرة ، اقترب منك، بخوف من القادم المرير
بخطا مسرعة ، واثقة ، تبتعد عني ،بلهفة ناعمة كالحرير
صار دمعي رفيقي ، دائما فوق الخدود

لأني أهواك هوا عذبني واستملكني لأبعد الحدود

سلبتني طفولتي ، سرقتني الحنين والامان
ثم رميتني وحدي لأقف و أواجه الأحزان

أحببتك و أحبك و سأظل أحبك حبا بكل جنون
وسأظل أهتف أن كل الدنيا من أجل حبك تهون
يا حسرة قلبي و عيني على الذي كان بيننا ، على الذي كان

ياحسرة شوقي ولهفتي اليك ، الى حضنك ، الى الحنان

سأغنيك بأحزاني موالا تملأه الآه و الأنين

سأنشر اسمك في قصائدي على مر السنين

The 20 Best Things About Being Single!

1. "You can have male friends without having to defend yourself and explain that nothing else is going on."

2. "You can finally see all the good videos -- the romantic, cheesy films.”

3. "You don't have to deal with anyone's grumpy, moody personalities."

4. "You can spend as much time as you want with your family and nobody's lip will drag the ground."

5. "You don't have anyone saying: you are not going to wear that, are you?"

6. "There is no one putting you on a tiny pedestal that you can fall off of at any moment, unless you are focusing on your balance all day long."

7. "You don't have to stroke the fragile male ego."

8. "No needless exposure to foulness, burping and so on."

9. "You are not accountable to anyone: you are free to do whatever you please. No need to explain where you are going and when you'll be back!"

10. "You can talk to your girlfriends for hours on the phone without getting dirty, exasperated looks."

11. "No more checking with someone to see if 'it's okay' to tell someone yes or no to an invitation. You can accept on the spot."

12. "You can be happy with who you are, not who he wants you to be."

13. "If you are depressed or mad at the world for a few minutes, you don't have to worry about having your 'outlook on life' analyzed."

14. "You can buy something for yourself (a new dress, CD, shoes, or whatever) without being asked, 'What do you need that for?' "

15. "You can eat garlic or onions without a second thought about breath mints."

16. "You don't have to give yourself lame excuses for not devoting time to yourself."

17. "No one is going to get insulted when you spend the day at the beach checking out the lifeguards!"

18. "You can spend your paycheck on what you want."

19. "You don't have to worry if he will or won't call."

20. "No more arguments about things you can't explain."

Thoughts: Soul Chokers

Choking, I literally jumped out of bed, sat facing the computer screen, grabbed the keyboard and started typing away the thoughts suffocating my soul…

I don't think at this late hour I am mentally able to formulate logical and grammatically correct paragraphs so I will put those thoughts into short sentences… Thought Number 1: Have you ever been in a place, amongst a crowd which you were the most "beautiful" and "attractive" one out of but you deeply felt inside that you were in reality just the most miserable? I have…

Thought Number 2: I hate the fact that I never "hung around" anywhere long enough to make real friends and solid friendships, not a job, not a school, not a country…

Thought Number 3: Should I give leaving Jordan more thought? I mean are 8 months truly sufficient for me to know that I can not adapt? Moreover, would leaving mean more painful farewells and broken bonds?

Thought Number 4: Why is it that when one asks for too little he/she doesn't get anything? While those who want so much seem to get most of it?

Thought Number 5: Have I been a good friend to those who consider me a friend? Could I have done more, been more?

Thought Number 6: Where is the thin line between jealousy and being obsessive? Who defines that line?

Thought Number 7: Every successful person learns something new every day, what have I learnt for the past few days, weeks or months? (I do not mean on the work level because as before, academics and work have always been the best I can achieve in!)

Thought Number 8: Is it true that nothing has it all? Is that why pretty girls are stupid half of the time and the other half are just simply unlucky?

Thought Number 9: When is it time to move on and just let go? I mean when does a person reach his/her true "breaking point"?

Thought Number 10: Could I ever be or will I ever be happier, more satisfied, more relaxed, and safer? Because if the answer is no then: why the struggle?

Thought Number 11: I should go to sleep but I simply can not right now!

Thought Number 12: What is each of my readers going to think or feel when they read this particular post? Is it going to annoy or upset anyone? Will someone deduce that I am really depressed or will another think I am just letting off steam?

Thought Number 13: When are we going to move to the new house? Will it bring the family closer or tear them more apart?

Thought Number 14: I really feel like a Nescafe right now but I'm scared that if I have one, combined with all those thoughts, I won't be able to sleep for a week to come!

Thought number 15: How could some people actually act and speak as if you are not there? As if you don't exist?

Thought Number 16: Will I be here when my six months pregnant friend comes back from Oman? Will I be there when she has her first baby?

Thought Number 17: Where will I be in two months? Surrounded by whom? Eating what? Doing what? Feeling how?

Thought Number 18: Do mistakes from the past keep haunting us till the day we die?

Thought Number 19: Do I affect anyone's life either positively or negatively? How?

Thought Number 20: After all I have been through, why do I still have trust in people? Why do I over expect? How can I still be this sensitive?

Thought Number 21: When will the day come for me to achieve some of my dreams – my little secrets?

Thought Number 22: Is the way I'm living my life now a reason for the delay in my dreams' execution?

Thought Number 23: I probably should stop typing now because I guess this post will be amongst the longest I have on my blog (and I know how people get bored of reading long posts!

Bio-Art & Bio-Artists...

I have recently read this article which I found very remarkable… Here's a part of it… Enjoy…
"Bio-artists use live tissues, bacteria, living organisms and life processes to create works of art that blur the traditional distinctions between science and art. Most of these works tend toward social reflection, conveying political and societal criticism through the combination of artistic and scientific processes."

Created by My Bestfriend! :)