"Unless commitment is made, there are only promises and hopes; but no plans." ~ Peter F. Drucker
Monday, August 31, 2009
Quote of the Day...
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"Unless commitment is made, there are only promises and hopes; but no plans." ~ Peter F. Drucker
Friday, August 28, 2009
Quote of the Day...
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"Love cures people - both the ones who give it and the ones who receive it". -Karl A. Menninger
Thursday, August 27, 2009
The Analogy of the Fly!
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Every single day, I developed a habit to take a few five minute breaks during work hours, head down to the garden outside, stand there in silence and observe nature, closely, deeply...
On each day, I see something within the many layers and levels of nature that makes me wonder how similar we are to the elements of nature; how we are not that different from the bee which roams the garden trying to find the perfect flower to suckle on, the tree which stands there proud although involuntarily, the flower which tries to tease its observer with its colors and gentleness and so on...
But today, the most distinguished element of nature, which was able to capture and even more so, grab my attention was a fly!
As I stood there staring at a window from outside, I noticed a fly eagerly bashing its tiny little head against the window, trying to get out! Below the fly, at the window sill, I was able to notice a couple of dead fellow flies and bees, who apparently tried to do the same thing yet sadly failed.
This observation would have been utterly useless if it weren't for the fact that behind the window the lost fly was so vigorously attacking, there was a very wide space and a bit further, there was a door which lead to the garden i.e, freedom!
Despite the fact that the fly, as well as other insects, are structured in a way that ensures their survival to a large extent, the fly stopped at the dead end, the window, and refused to think of any other alternatives that could in fact save its existence!
Finally, the question I'd like to ask here, based on this observation, is as follows: How "fly-like" can we be when placed in a pseudo corner of making a decision or taking a stand!
On each day, I see something within the many layers and levels of nature that makes me wonder how similar we are to the elements of nature; how we are not that different from the bee which roams the garden trying to find the perfect flower to suckle on, the tree which stands there proud although involuntarily, the flower which tries to tease its observer with its colors and gentleness and so on...
But today, the most distinguished element of nature, which was able to capture and even more so, grab my attention was a fly!
As I stood there staring at a window from outside, I noticed a fly eagerly bashing its tiny little head against the window, trying to get out! Below the fly, at the window sill, I was able to notice a couple of dead fellow flies and bees, who apparently tried to do the same thing yet sadly failed.
This observation would have been utterly useless if it weren't for the fact that behind the window the lost fly was so vigorously attacking, there was a very wide space and a bit further, there was a door which lead to the garden i.e, freedom!
Despite the fact that the fly, as well as other insects, are structured in a way that ensures their survival to a large extent, the fly stopped at the dead end, the window, and refused to think of any other alternatives that could in fact save its existence!
Finally, the question I'd like to ask here, based on this observation, is as follows: How "fly-like" can we be when placed in a pseudo corner of making a decision or taking a stand!
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Random Observation: Tangibles & Closure!
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The more I think about it, the more I truly believe that there exists a very high relation or even correlation between tangibles - such as cars, mobile phones and so on- and closure between two people who have ended, or in the process of ending, a relationship.
The way I see it, after having been subjected to the situation and seeing others undergo it as well, tangibles constitute a large part of any relationship, regardless of its nature, strength or purity. The tangibles we have throughout the relationship start forming some bond with our partner during his presence in our lives. If we really want to move on, it only seems objective for us to replace all the tangibles that now remind us of that one-upon-a-time partner!
Let's take a car for example, you spend hours in a car together with your partner, you laugh, argue, touch; create memories... How hard would it be to go in your car, every single day, knowing that the person who you've shared all those times with, in this particular car, is now gone? Naturally, this applies to furniture, such as a bed or a couch and the list goes on!
To some, even a mobile phone could be the tangible to replace after replacing the partner!
I guess it all depends on the budget and the will to move on!
Leaving the country seems like the best solution to replace most tangibles at once, wouldn't you agree?
The way I see it, after having been subjected to the situation and seeing others undergo it as well, tangibles constitute a large part of any relationship, regardless of its nature, strength or purity. The tangibles we have throughout the relationship start forming some bond with our partner during his presence in our lives. If we really want to move on, it only seems objective for us to replace all the tangibles that now remind us of that one-upon-a-time partner!
Let's take a car for example, you spend hours in a car together with your partner, you laugh, argue, touch; create memories... How hard would it be to go in your car, every single day, knowing that the person who you've shared all those times with, in this particular car, is now gone? Naturally, this applies to furniture, such as a bed or a couch and the list goes on!
To some, even a mobile phone could be the tangible to replace after replacing the partner!
I guess it all depends on the budget and the will to move on!
Leaving the country seems like the best solution to replace most tangibles at once, wouldn't you agree?
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ابحث في عيون الناس
ابحث في عيون الناس عن وطن يضم احزانك ومآسيك
ابحث ايضا عن قلب صادقٍ يحضنك ويعطيك وعني يغنيك
هل يا ترى بعد بحثك هذا سوف تجد من ينسيك؟
قل كلاما جارحا مؤلما مجردا من الاحاسيس
لا تكن لي حبيبا ولا صديقا ولا لايامي ونيس
اطفيء بغضبك جمرة الحب وشعلة الفوانيس
اذهب في اي وجهة تشاء وعن اليالي ارحل كما تريد
او ابق واطعمني العلقم ومن خمرة لسعتك اسقني المزيد
Replace Me...
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There are billions of females out there,
Go ahead: replace me...
There are a thousand reasons for you to go,
After you, but face me!
There are a hundred blames you can lay on me,
Let your claims embrace me!
There are tens of tears you can drain from my soul,
And with your strings, lace me!
But there is only one heart you can break,
Then from your heart, erase me!
Quote of the Day...
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"The greatest enemy of knowledge is not ignorance...it is the illusion of knowledge." Stephen Hawking
Monday, August 24, 2009
One Foot Out the Door!
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You were so anxious to leave, you always had one foot out the door!
Every moment you ever spent with me felt as if you were doing a chore!
Whatever bothered you and we resolved was never really erased,
You kept a running counter for me for every little action misplaced!
I meant nothing to you, although you tried to act and say otherwise,
You had no concept of forgiving, you were ignorant of the word compromise!
I am made of love, to give love and breathe love, but not you...
I should have seen this all, I should have read it through!
Now your feet are both out and you closed the all the possible doors behind,
Damn it! I thought that this time I'd be more logical, maybe less blind!
Take it All Back...
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Take it all back just like you pretended to give it away...
Break me one more time, my heart is mutilated anyway!
Try to shake me more though you know that my grounds are trembling,
Go ahead, be like everyone else; shattering, painful and dissembling...
Talk about us behind my back, blame it all on my "bad" behavior!
You're just like anyone else, you put people down while acting like a savior!
Try to tame me and taint me more and more,
These tears I shed for you I HATE and abhor!
Take it all away, all those hollow nights, the empty words and all you did,
Take it all away, I placed a bet on us and I so sadly lost the bid!
You think you can play me? Just because you know how hard I collide?
You think you can easily abuse my heart because my emotions I can't hide?
Well "bravo" I tell you, you did it and to you I raise my hat in shame...
I'm not the victim here, I insist, I am the only one to blame!
I ache for the memories that were nothing to you,
I bleed again, I bleed for me and not for you...
As for me,
My apologies I extend to you because far from perfect I was and I admit,
Between the past, the present and the future, my damned soul was split!
I apologize for any time I caused you pain or any frown I drew on your face,
I apologize for allowing myself to be lost in your far from real embrace...
But most of all,
I apologize for seeing a family for me in your eyes,
For thinking that your smile is the cure for all my sighs...
I apologize for placing my happiness in your clumsy hands,
I apologize for laying my trust in your moving sands...
You made your point clear and now I must deal with this,
I just wish for serenity, not happiness, not love nor bliss...
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Pride & Compromise... The Story of the Thin Line!
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Introduction...
From Wikipedia:
The Seven Deadly Sins, also known as the Capital Vices or Cardinal Sins, is a classification of the most objectionable vices... It consists of "Lust", "Gluttony", "Greed", "Sloth", "Wrath", "Envy", and "Pride".
The Story Goes...
As it was told, a long long time ago, there existed a very thin line between the hideous sin "pride" and the beautiful virtue "compromise"...
Whatever people did, especially within the frames of a relationship, pride was always there to wreck and destroy the relationship while compromise did its best to conserve it and raise it higher, to a more elevated level...
One day, compromise felt really bad for all the problems pride was causing... It decided to go address pride, trying to bring it back to its senses and urge it to be more lenient with people...
Compromise said: "I do understand how powerful you are dear pride... I know that you have the ability to ruin relationships that are meant to last as well as end friendships and kill love... Therefore, I would like to plead to you and beg you, out of weakness, to be gentle on poor souls who don't know any better but to believe in you and follow you blindly"...
Pride sniffed, smirked then said: "You poor little thing you! Coming here to beg me to quit something I do not cause! People bring their misery amongst themselves... They know too much pride is bad for them, yet, they chose to submerge themselves it in... Even if I wanted to do something about it, and trust me I don't, I can't! People are given choices and whatever they choose is their path. Regardless of my will or intention, I have no power to change the path any two choose for each other; they must be able to do it themselves"...
Disappointed and sad, compromise said its goodbyes and left, wondering what will happen to the world with people's whims and sins in control...
With time, compromise started getting older and feeble, while pride managed to get stronger...
Too many love stories came to an end...
Countless tears were shed...
Numerous friendships were diminished...
And now, at our present days, the thin line between pride and compromise seems to be fading with compromise being just a word, stripped from all its beauty and stuck in the corner of the doomed!
From Wikipedia:
The Seven Deadly Sins, also known as the Capital Vices or Cardinal Sins, is a classification of the most objectionable vices... It consists of "Lust", "Gluttony", "Greed", "Sloth", "Wrath", "Envy", and "Pride".
The Story Goes...
As it was told, a long long time ago, there existed a very thin line between the hideous sin "pride" and the beautiful virtue "compromise"...
Whatever people did, especially within the frames of a relationship, pride was always there to wreck and destroy the relationship while compromise did its best to conserve it and raise it higher, to a more elevated level...
One day, compromise felt really bad for all the problems pride was causing... It decided to go address pride, trying to bring it back to its senses and urge it to be more lenient with people...
Compromise said: "I do understand how powerful you are dear pride... I know that you have the ability to ruin relationships that are meant to last as well as end friendships and kill love... Therefore, I would like to plead to you and beg you, out of weakness, to be gentle on poor souls who don't know any better but to believe in you and follow you blindly"...
Pride sniffed, smirked then said: "You poor little thing you! Coming here to beg me to quit something I do not cause! People bring their misery amongst themselves... They know too much pride is bad for them, yet, they chose to submerge themselves it in... Even if I wanted to do something about it, and trust me I don't, I can't! People are given choices and whatever they choose is their path. Regardless of my will or intention, I have no power to change the path any two choose for each other; they must be able to do it themselves"...
Disappointed and sad, compromise said its goodbyes and left, wondering what will happen to the world with people's whims and sins in control...
With time, compromise started getting older and feeble, while pride managed to get stronger...
Too many love stories came to an end...
Countless tears were shed...
Numerous friendships were diminished...
And now, at our present days, the thin line between pride and compromise seems to be fading with compromise being just a word, stripped from all its beauty and stuck in the corner of the doomed!
Monday, August 17, 2009
Call Me Whatever You Please!
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You can call me lame,for calling your name,
for taking the blame,
for bearing the flame...
You can call me insecure,
sacrificing a heart so pure,
suffering so hard to endure,
searching for reasons and not a cure...
You can call me insane,
trying to single handedly lift the crane,
driving in the opposite lane,
absorbing in all this anger and pain!
You can call me a fool,
breaking each and every rule,
bathing in the ugly and the cruel,
allowing you all to use me like a tool!
You can call me moody and hard to please,
charging me for everything with ease,
my emotions you are welcomed to tease,
you can do that till all words seize!
In your head, you can make up stories about me,
stories that won't capture me or set me free...
In your speech you can use thorny phrases,
I don't live for your criticism or your praises!
You can call me whatever you want,
or just call me by my name,
at the end, it's all the same, it's all the same!
for taking the blame,
for bearing the flame...
You can call me insecure,
sacrificing a heart so pure,
suffering so hard to endure,
searching for reasons and not a cure...
You can call me insane,
trying to single handedly lift the crane,
driving in the opposite lane,
absorbing in all this anger and pain!
You can call me a fool,
breaking each and every rule,
bathing in the ugly and the cruel,
allowing you all to use me like a tool!
You can call me moody and hard to please,
charging me for everything with ease,
my emotions you are welcomed to tease,
you can do that till all words seize!
In your head, you can make up stories about me,
stories that won't capture me or set me free...
In your speech you can use thorny phrases,
I don't live for your criticism or your praises!
You can call me whatever you want,
or just call me by my name,
at the end, it's all the same, it's all the same!
Sticks & Stones Won't Hurt My Bones...
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I woke up with warm tears burning my eyes and a truly pained frown:
Sticks and stones won't hurt my bones but words can bring me down...
I chocked up in words last night, I didn't know what to say or do...
Hearing your words of acid and poison, couldn't believe it's you!
How could we be so blind to others' feelings, how could we just ignore?
How could we just hurt and open wounds and simply walk out the door?
I wish I could just shut myself from the world, close my eyes, slip into an endless sleep,
By far these cuts bleed so much more than ever, I now understand that they are too deep!
To think you felt the need to explain all the things I knew with pointing fingers!
The echo of your voice resounds in my head, the hate in your tone still lingers!
I just wish that there will be mercy on my soul since I have a long day ahead,
I just wish I could erase the sorrow and take back in the tears that I shed!
Sticks and stones won't hurt my bones but words can bring me down...
I chocked up in words last night, I didn't know what to say or do...
Hearing your words of acid and poison, couldn't believe it's you!
How could we be so blind to others' feelings, how could we just ignore?
How could we just hurt and open wounds and simply walk out the door?
I wish I could just shut myself from the world, close my eyes, slip into an endless sleep,
By far these cuts bleed so much more than ever, I now understand that they are too deep!
To think you felt the need to explain all the things I knew with pointing fingers!
The echo of your voice resounds in my head, the hate in your tone still lingers!
I just wish that there will be mercy on my soul since I have a long day ahead,
I just wish I could erase the sorrow and take back in the tears that I shed!
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Allow Me to Introduce Myselves to You...
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I claim no fame, power or authority... That is something I have to make clear...
I just need you all to listen, very carefully, to everything I'm going to say here...
Whether it be day or night, at work, at home or out for fun,
May it be hot or cold, a rainy day or one blessed with sun...
I am many people living in one container called the body,
I maybe someone and might as well even be a nobody!
Therefore, after this brief introduction, allow me to introduce "myselves" to you!
A little girl with a heart so pure and untainted, simply wanting to run and play,
Mindless of the pains in the world, just living life carelessly day by day...
An angry rebel; trying hard to adapt to a world filled with misery and unjust,
Fighting for rights which have been unfairly taken, seeking answers in the dust!
An optimist with faith and hope that things will change to the better if I try,
Holding in the frustrations and smiling to the tears that slip from my eye...
A pessimist to the core, doubting everything and everyone around,
Fearing a sorrowful end with a chocked scream and a muffled sound...
I might smile all day but come the night I might break down in tears...
I might be confident at times while at others I might tremble in my fears!
Today I know what I want but tomorrow I might change my mind,
I might believe in love at many times although I know it is blind!
Moody and unpleasant I know I can be at any point of any day,
And I won't hide the pain I feel to avoid other people's dismay!
But overall, at least I know that I am many living in one,
That will never change, not after all the damages done!
**Special thanks to Tywak ( Break ) for the image...
I just need you all to listen, very carefully, to everything I'm going to say here...
Whether it be day or night, at work, at home or out for fun,
May it be hot or cold, a rainy day or one blessed with sun...
I am many people living in one container called the body,
I maybe someone and might as well even be a nobody!
Therefore, after this brief introduction, allow me to introduce "myselves" to you!
A little girl with a heart so pure and untainted, simply wanting to run and play,
Mindless of the pains in the world, just living life carelessly day by day...
An angry rebel; trying hard to adapt to a world filled with misery and unjust,
Fighting for rights which have been unfairly taken, seeking answers in the dust!
An optimist with faith and hope that things will change to the better if I try,
Holding in the frustrations and smiling to the tears that slip from my eye...
A pessimist to the core, doubting everything and everyone around,
Fearing a sorrowful end with a chocked scream and a muffled sound...
I might smile all day but come the night I might break down in tears...
I might be confident at times while at others I might tremble in my fears!
Today I know what I want but tomorrow I might change my mind,
I might believe in love at many times although I know it is blind!
Moody and unpleasant I know I can be at any point of any day,
And I won't hide the pain I feel to avoid other people's dismay!
But overall, at least I know that I am many living in one,
That will never change, not after all the damages done!
**Special thanks to Tywak ( Break ) for the image...
Saturday, August 08, 2009
Caution: Road Bump Ahead!
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To someone who claims to have reached maturity at almost all levels, it seems to be rather juvenile to view the world in a multi-layered color scheme or to imagine that, with all the possible variable available, things will eventually turn out to be for my best interest.Yet, I do!
Whether it be an insignificant action that causes a big problem and greater manifestations that ever expected with a family member or just simple unfulfilled expectations, which you promised yourself never to set, it feels as though we are constantly swimming upstream!
What I can't really grasp is the concept of "perfection", which seems to be the new trending topic of my days and what everyone is seeking to find in others while the truth of the matter remains to be: No one is perfect, no one can be perfect, and that is that!
Regardless of the efforts we invest in building ourselves to be strong, independent, well-rounded, caring intellectual givers, at the end of the day, when push comes to shove, we are who we are: Mortal fragile human beings made of flesh, blood, emotions, contradictions and in some cases, a whole lot of pain that we need time as well as support to digest!
Sometimes, I wish...
Clumsily, I do sometimes wish that in life, people would have been more cautious and aware of their behaviors, which ended up causing me indescribable pain and disappointments. I wish I was a clean white slate with no aching past to get over, no haunted present to live and no sealed future to fear...
But that can never be, and I am mature enough to realize that...
What worries me though, is the duration it will take me to be "me" once again and the slight chance that that could actually happen...
And then again, the questions that arise are:
Do I really want to be "me" again? Is "me" good enough? Is "me" able to overcome the many road pumps in my coming past and fix the damages done due to the past bumps I have passed?
Maybe, maybe not...
All I am certain of now is that I'm shattered in a million directions like shreds of a bullet which exploded and landed everywhere yet nowhere in specific...
I surrender now to my weakness, if only for a few minutes, and allow my tears to gently run over the paths of my tired face...
Beirut
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